...a little known track entitled "I Live" by Hilary.
Hilary Blake, known professionally only by her first name, was an English singer/songwriter in Los Angeles in the early 1980s. She released a four song EP in 1982 which received airplay on Los Angeles' famous KROQ radio station. "I Live" was one of those four songs.
The instrumentation is pure "1980s synthesizer" but used in a way that, at that point, few had yet tried. The racing, jangly percussion line and anxious buzzing create a tight, manic texture that was ahead of its time. The lyrics seem simple but are actually quite profound: Hilary sings of living in a house of her own making. In Jungian dream analysis, a house is a symbol for ourselves. Hilary is not trapped inside a house but is living her life as it happens. She is controlling her life, her "house." It is a wonderful, deep metaphor with universal implications since we are all living in a house of our own making, sometimes for the better and sometimes not. It is inescapable.
I live in a house with no doors and no windowsI live up in a room with no chairs and no floorIn this box, with cracks in the ceilingI sleep on these wallsThat just means I live
I live in a houseOf my own making
This light filters in through the rips in the rooftopI feel so confused which is rain and which is teardropI scratch at the plaster I fall down exhaustedThat just means I live
I live in a houseOf my own makingYou say what you want to sayI liveI live in a houseOf my own making
I sleep here in this box with no shades on my windowsI wake up every night thinking past every heartbeatI live
I live in a houseOf my own makingYou say what you want to sayI liveI live in a houseOf my own makingYou be what what you want to beI liveI live in a houseOf my own makingShe never released any more material. In 2007, she passed away from unknown causes.